I initially wrote this post on February 28, 2011 at 11:59 pm. However, I never got to finish because I was so overwhelmed with mixed emotions. I am happy that Lucas is growing up and at the same time I am sad at how fast time flies.
I can't believe it's been 3 years already. I feel sad and happy at the same time. It seems like it was only yesterday when
he started walking and now he's celebrating yet another
unofficial birthday.

Flashback: When I was pregnant with him, I knew he was a boy even before the doctor told me his gender. I just knew it, no way I was carrying a girl then, I was so freaking fat and ugly then and oh my gosh, the morning sickness that lasts all freaking day is something that won't easily be forgotten and is what keeps me from getting pregnant again! LOL.

I did not have the gorgeous pregnancy glow I had when I was pregnant with Chakai. My pregnancy with Lucas was not a smooth one like that of my pregnancy with Chakai. When I was pregnant with Lucas, I honestly felt like a cow, and for the first time in my life, I actually used the phrase,
"Does this make me look fat?", when buying clothes or simply dressing up. LOL.

And yes, I was fat,
even for a pregnant lady. According to my doctor, I have already gained the normal 25 pounds an average pregnant lady gains during their entire pregnancy and I gained it only while I was 4 months pregnant!

One time after my pre-natal check up, Chakai and I decided to grab something to eat in a nearby Jollibee, and in the middle of eating my burger
(with sundae, spaghetti with chicken and fries!) I felt a pop. The button on my maternity pants literally popped off
(think about the scene in White Chicks, when he was trying on pants that was way small for him and the button popped off and broke the mirror). LOL.

I was that fat and I was only 6 months pregnant and pregnancy pants are garterized and the particular one I was wearing was supposed to fit me until I reach full term. Now can you imagine how fat I was? LOL.

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| I was only 6 months pregnant in this picture! |
Fast Forward to Now: When you ask Lucas how old he is, he will say,
"Zeeyo". LOL.

But it's true. He was born on a leap year, so no actual birthdays to celebrate until next year. Yay for us because we have 4 years to prepare for a very grandiose first birthday for
MY boy
(not B's boy, MINE. LOL.). But we haven't really saved for it yet, but I am hoping that this year will be great for us financially, I hope my business picks up soon so I can pay my debts and save enough for an amazing first birthday for Lucas. We have never celebrated his birthday officially, we acknowledge his special day but no elaborate celebration what-so-ever. He's too young to appreciate it anyway, at least next year, I know he'll really enjoy his birthday, and it is going to be a themed party
(awesome!), but we haven't decided on a theme yet.
I was feeling so nostalgic today as I was browsing through pictures of both him and Chakai, time sure flies when you're having fun and for me, being a mom has been 90% fun and 10% stressful.
Being a mom is hard. I love being a mom, but I will not recommend it to anyone. LOL.

Seriously, it's not for the weak of mind, soul and body.
Anyway, I don't know where the past 3 years have gone, it feels like it was only a few days back when I came home from the hospital holding my boy in my arms
(except I've lost weight and can wear a bikini once again and my nose isn't huuge anymore!
). I remember so well how
B and my sister mocked me because I said
"my boy" to Lucas so much. LOL.

B is at work 6 days in a week, 8 hours per day and Chakai is in school 5 days a week, 8 hours a day, so Lucas and I are pretty much alone in the house most of the time. We are practically inseparable and we haven't really been apart for more than 8 hours. I think I will have a major case of separation anxiety once he starts school next year, like what I had with Chakai, but I hope I'll be able to handle it better this time around.
Will post about his birthday dinner soon.
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